![]() Introduction: “Come to me. Why must you ruin this moment? You are burdened with thought. Burdened with the past and expectations of the future. You are burdened with your self. Cast these aside by laughing at yourself. And love, for what more is there than to love me? Take me now and let it be heaven for us.” ― Kamand Kojouri It has been a long time since I wrote anything; however I have thought a lot about life, choices, behavior, responses, regrets, hopes, yesterday and tomorrow. Living in the now is important... I wake up and thank the lord for the new day... and live my day. I have always felt it was safer to think and act this way. If I die well I didn't agonize over the fact of death. The finality of it all. This probably tells you lot about me. Everyday, I start a new page, it may be the same as yesterday's or even tomorrows; however my plans are typically short term if I am to act on them. Yes there are those dreams and hopes but to buy the new car or tires for the old one happens this weeks, not in three months. I have a budgets that helps me plan ahead... but then I am living right now... Risk taker? Big yes and small no. It is a difficult yet easy decision and is strictly based on how much I am loved and the potential for a logical or even positive outcome.... This month, this week today, this afternoon... if not then I will address it tomorrow....This behavior is really about believing in my tomorrow in the hopes that if I get there it will go my way or at least I have a sure footing with people, time, events that I have invested in. Complicate? Hell yes! I have always been at the crossroads of my life... Why? because I am also scare about tomorrow and the choices I make that will affect me emotionally... If I die... well I am dead... who cares... It's the pain in disappointment, loss, love, loneliness that might crush me... So it's hard for me to crossover the road.... To make that decision... The right decision... People who know me, understand this about me and are patiently helping me cross this road.... to the other side. Don't push! I am stubborn... "smile" Here is a song that speaks to this universe. Love Me Anyway P!nk Even if you see my scars Even if I break your heart If we're a million miles apart Do you think you'd walk away? If I get lost in all the noise Even if I lose my voice Flirt with all the other boys What would you say? Could you? Could you? Could you love me anyway? Is it for better or for worse Or am I just your good time girl? Can you still hold me when it hurts Or would you walk away? Even if I scandalize you Cut you down and criticize you Tell a million lies about you What would you say? Could you? Could you? Could you? Could you love me anyway? Could you? (Aw, could you?) Could you? (Could you?) Could you? Could you love me anyway? Could you? Could you? (Could you still love me?) Could you? (Pick up the pieces of me?) Could you? (Could you still love me?) Could you… Lyrics Reference: https://www.google.com/search?q=P!nk+-+Love+Me+Anyway+(Lyrics)+ft.+Chris+Stapleton+lyrics&rlz=1C1CHBF_enUS868US868&oq=P!nk+-+Love+Me+Anyway+(Lyrics)+ft.+Chris+Stapleton+lyrics&aqs=chrome..69i57.3907j0j1&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8 Source: LyricFind I can love you anyway.... I can always want you and need you... however I love you just the same. I can't throw it way, expect a different feeling no matter how I am treated... It's love... a simple fact... I can get angry, upset to the point of leaving but can't because you are my soul... |
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Diana Mary Sharpton“I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close.” Categories
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